Unsteady and Going to CHURCH

July 30, 2017

So this morning I went to church. No really, I went to CHURCH.  When you finish reading this, decide if you have really ever been to CHURCH.

There was a guest speaker today and the scripture was taken from Philippians 3: 8-14. The message was based off of this.

I’m going to place this scripture below and take it a little further out to verse 21.

Philippians 3:8-21New International Version (NIV)

What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith ina]”>[a] Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. 10 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.

Pressing on Toward the Goal

12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

15 All of us, then, who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. 16 Only let us live up to what we have already attained.

17 Join together in following my example, brothers and sisters, and just as you have us as a model, keep your eyes on those who live as we do. 18 For, as I have often told you before and now tell you again even with tears, many live as enemies of the cross of Christ. 19 Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach,and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is set on earthly things. 20 But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, 21 who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.

I read this all, taking in what I could in the midst of sitting in church in between my 2 children, both of whom are leaning on me, one playing with my hand and the other with his head on my shoulder.  I am thinking about how I probably do not take hold of God enough, and I let my children take hold of me without teaching them to hold God.  How can I ever teach them to take hold of God if I never do?  I definitely try to handle things on my own. It’s just what I do. During the message, the pastor took a glance at me and smiled (it is a very small church with a very small congregation).  He stopped and said, “I do not want to call anyone out or embarrass anyone but I SEE. I see a mom, a mom with her two children clinging to her and it makes my heart melt. A boy and a girl, clinging to their mom and it makes my heart absolutely melt.” He spoke of how it is to be a mom, a parent.  We must take in the needs of our kids. We must pay attention to them.  We must “teach” them what this scripture is saying. We must teach them to “press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of” Paul, and us as parents, and us as followers of Jesus.

So I sat up a little straighter and listened, absorbed and really felt what this guest pastor was speaking very directly towards me.  He talked about pushing forward. He talked about having struggles and still looking toward the ultimate goal. He talked about putting things behind us, not forgetting but not dwelling on.  The pastor had a very interesting fact about the Australian Coat of Arms and the 2 animals on it, the emu and the kangaroo.  Did you know that these two animals can only move forward? Their body structures, the 3 toes on the emu and the massive tail of the kangaroo, prevent these animals from going backwards. What if we only moved forward, not in a physical sense, but in a way to where we lived our life looking ahead and also up, taking hold of God. We are going to have struggles, we are going to falter, but what if??

We left the service, I thanked the guest pastor as he spoke so kindly to my children and I.  We headed to and got into the car as we talked about how we all need to improve, especially praying. Then on the radio as we pulled out of the church parking lot came a song. This song that I have listened to hundreds of times but I have never quite listened to in the way I listened to it today. It was Unsteady by the X Ambassadors. The song was actually written about a divorce but that is not what reached out to me today at all.  I heard it as more of a prayer and God reaching out to me. So read and listen to this song as God talking to you and you talking to God.  And remember the context in which I am listening to it, the scripture, the pastor speaking to me…just listen.

The lyrics to this song are below as is a link to the video of the version I listened to. I highly suggest the video over just the lyrics to get the full effect of what I was experiencing today.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36msb_3was0

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
‘Cause I’m a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
‘Cause I’m a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Mama, come here
Approach, appear
Daddy, I’m alone
‘Cause this house don’t feel like home

If you love me, don’t let go
If you love me, don’t let go

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
‘Cause I’m a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
‘Cause I’m a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Mother, I know
That you’re tired of being alone
Dad, I know you’re trying
To fight when you feel like flying

If you love me, don’t let go
If you love me, don’t let go

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
‘Cause I’m a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
‘Cause I’m a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
‘Cause I’m a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Written by Noah G Feldshuh, Casey Wakeley Harris, Samuel Nelson Harris, Adam Levine, Alexander Junior Grant • Copyright © Universal Music Publishing Group, Songs Music Publishing

As I listened to this I think to myself that I have prayed something similar to this really not too long ago. I pray this when I am struggling with life.  I pray this when my children are struggling through life.  I pray this when I am struggling with living in different places every few years. I pray this when my kids and I are not quite fitting in and having troubles with the moves we make.  But today I took this as an answer. An answer that God is listening and I can hold on to him.  I can hold on and put the struggles on Him and I NEED to teach my children to do the same as they are watching me. And it really is ok to be unsteady every now and then…or maybe a lot!

So God is clearly talking to me and I am listening today.  I am not one to think that a sermon about holding on is completely coincidental to getting in the car directly after church and hearing a song about holding on. I believe in signs, I believe God talks to us more than we even realize. I feel like the decisions I am making in my life are becoming more clear and I am still on the right path.  I feel like I need to take hold and just keep listening, keep improving and keep my kids(and husband 🙂 ) on this path with me.

Have you been to CHURCH?  Is God talking to you? Is he talking and maybe you just aren’t listening? Are you at a time in your life where you are unsteady? It’s ok. Hold on. Listen. I’m praying.

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